Yesterday had to be one of the roughest days I’ve had in quite a while. Usually, I like to write blogs that will encourage and be uplifting. As I spoke with my pastor yesterday, he recommended that I blog. I would love it if my life was always rosy and I never had any dark moments; that just isn’t reality. We all have those from time to time, no matter how strong we are.
As we have all experienced with relationships, there tend to be seasons as well. Recently, it has just felt like a cold, bitter winter at home. Realize the key word is “felt.” The problem was the actions that came from the feeling. Another big part of my life ~ my book. The enemy is doing everything possible to discourage me, and yesterday I reached the point of ‘Why try?’ Yes, your uplifting blogger/author who has written about these times forgot her own words she wrote in her book and previous blogs. Then there’s the J-O-B. There is new management there and going back after being out for a while with a pinched nerve ~ it just doesn’t ‘feel’ right to me anymore. Again, the word ‘feel’ comes into play. On top of all of this, my back is keeping me from taking care of a lot of things that need my attention!
Needless to say, by the end of the day, I was in tears and a wreck. I called Bob Stacy (my pastor) and we spoke. I told him how hard it is for me when I’m doing everything I can and it seems like no one else is doing their part (at least what I think they should be doing). I followed up by saying, “I don’t know what to do.” Bob replied, “Yeah, what can you do?” The words immediately went through every fiber of my being and out of my mouth ~ “Be Still…”
I seem to constantly be getting this reminder from God through everyday trials. When I speak to others, I always say “God’s got this!” and it’s repeated back to me over and over. Practice what you preach ~ that’s the lesson. As I continue to write and talk with others about having faith in God, more trials come my way, testing my own faith. Do I fail? I’m human ~ that’s why I hit the dark spots. That’s also why God puts others around us to help us up when we fall and need that encouragement, compassion, prayer, and even phone hugs. I remembered in James 1:1-2 we’re told to be happy and thankful for the trials. Through the tears, I thanked God for the words He sent to me.
How is everything today? I am much better! I listened when the Holy Spirit gave me the words ~ “Be still…” When things are chaotic, you’re trying your hardest, nothing is turning out as you need/want it to…just be still… You see, after you’ve done everything you can, just be still…leave the rest up to God and watch what He does.
I will close by dramatically quoting Psalm 46:10:
“Be still, and know that I…AM…GOD.”
This is DeVaughn ~ bringing it home.
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