It has been approximately six weeks since I have written. I am happy to be back. Ever notice how much life is planned out and looks great on a piece of paper ~ that is, until life happens? I have been staying in Florida to take care of my mother since January of 2011 and visiting my husband once every 3 months for a week or so. A week before I planned to travel home for 3 weeks this time, my mother fell and fractured her pelvis bones. I camped in the hospital for 5 days and nights with her and was able to rest and pack once she was moved to rehab. She was doing better, so I continued my trip as planned to make my own doctor appointments. Within that time frame, she went home and almost fell again ~ the results were her being so dependent on someone physically that my next visit would be to pack up all of my belongings and move back home. The exact same day I got back from Florida with everything to finally unpack, my son, his wife, and two children moved in as well. He had gotten laid off and things had gotten bad quickly. At this point, there are 4 adults, 2 kids and 3 dogs under the same roof. The mere fact that I haven’t gone to jail within the last 3 weeks has been proof that God truly exists and how wonderful His grace is! 🙂
I am facing many storms right now as you are, too. We had not had the chance to start saving for whenever I came home for good, so how we are going to make ends meet is all in God’s hands. There is the haunting sadness of having to leave my mother in someone else’s hands due to my own limitations, knowing that she is slowly drifting away. There is also being the ‘strong’ mother for my son and his family while they face their trials. Yes, we all have our storms we are facing every day.
Am I afraid? Sometimes, yes. The good part is that it’s ok to be afraid. In the Bible, and I’m paraphrasing here, we are told to trust in Him when we are afraid—not if, but when. Peter was walking on water with Jesus in the storm and was fine until he became afraid; it was then that he started sinking. The reason was he took his eyes off of Jesus. He is our beacon in the darkest of storms that will guide our paths.
I want to urge you all, along with myself, to keep your eyes on Jesus throughout all of your storms.
He is the Lighthouse!
This is DeVaughn ~ bringing it home…
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